" what if"

what if nga na hindi kami ngkabalikan? ano kaya ang buhay niya at buhay ko? meron p rin kayang pagasa? im really feeling afraid and trying to figure out those questions. theres something I can't answer my question. dami naglalaro sa mind ko. siguro mas masaya sya sa ibang girl, ako naman still trying to find the right guy and hoping na mahahanap ang katulad nya. un siguro ang magiging buhay namin parehas. pero bkit ganun habang naiisip ko ung mga bagay na to napapaiyak at nasasaktan ako, my meaning ba kung bakit nya tinanong sakin ang mg bagay na to.minsan naisip ko n lng n wala un. gnyan tlaga sya. di sya ganun kashowy pero I know he loves me very much. kahit na hindi agree ang puso ko sa utak ko. stil nasasaktan ako.. I took it as a chalenge kasi for me he is the one. he will be the father of my children, the padre de familia of my house and my beloved hubby of my life! I really feel complete when I think of these. di ako sumusuko just to make him mine forever.. I really dont know kung hanggang kelan ganito but the only thing I knew was I am so blessed to have him in my life and I wish he would be forever... until we die.